ma died when I was five.
hung herself outside the barn.
she prayed to God it'd be quick.
He lied.

raised by dad--
who 'uz never around.
and when he was, showed me the back of his hand.

ran away.
hitched trains, and did coke.
sucked cock too; for coins.
but what's a young boy to do?
get high. survive. fuck UUUUUuuuuus.

an anonymous holding anonymous regrets.
even God--as busy as he is--can forget these
forget me.

old men. false promises. tangerine stains.
graffiti art, winter stars, and lorraine--
let's dance macabre;
the only dance we know

so it goes.